Deployment, if you dare!

Okay, so I've been asked numerous times what it's like for deployment and what to expect when the time starts winding down. As most of you know I am a military spouse and have experienced deployment first hand. Not only were we extremely NEW newlyweds, we were also dealing with a lot and a deployment was thrown into the mix. Hubby left for a 4 month deployment. Now, I have been through deployments before with my brother who is Army but it is TOTALLY different than it being your SO. I can't stress this enough. It IS different. While he was gone I had a couple of surgeries and 2 ER visits. It was so bad he called his boss that is stateside at 6pm our time to go to the ER and check on me. It was that bad ya'll. When he left I was still new to the area, didn't know anyone or anything. So I would wake up every morning and cry, go get chocolate donuts from Wal-Mart LOL, then go get lost in town to try to find something to do. I fell into a depression and would cry randomly just from seeing someone holding hands in front of me. I would go to the Dollar store and spend $5 on things I knew I didn't need but made me feel better. My outlet to waste time was play video games or sleep. I couldn't watch TV much because everything that was on TV was about love or relationships and it would make my depression worse than what it already was. I heard all the time to stay busy but hey, there's only so much a person can do. Needless to say, I survived deployment WITHOUT any children or pets. I was here all alone in this City I now call home. I know my way around town now from going and getting lost randomly. I learned my way around base alone. I learned what programs are out there and what to do. I was basically thrown to the wolves to survive 4 months in a town I knew nothing about with the military and my husband overseas. It was really tough. I, myself, have a problem with the military (that will be another blog, it's a new situation within itself). Don't let people tell you that the military will help you and be there and all this. It's what you make of it. I found the Family Readiness Center half way through deployment. The people there are nice and would talk to me about whatever was on my mind. It helped in a way but not nearly as much as you would think. They kept saying stay busy stay busy it will keep your mind off of things. People fail to realize that keeping busy only makes it worse in time. If you don't listen to yourself listen to me. You need to deal with the issue at hand, don't put it on the back burner. Doing things to keep you busy is okay BUT at the end of the day when it's time to unwind guess what, it will hit you like a ton of bricks and you won't know what to do. So I say this with love and care, it's okay to cry. It's okay to challenge yourself but it is NOT okay to stay busy at all times thinking it will make things better. It's only suppressing how you really feel and trust me it will hit you and when it does your life will be in a whirl wind. I can't stress that enough. Be ready to be alone, sad, and feeling hopeless at times. It's normal to feel that way. You have to bounce back, you have to snap out of it if your going to survive. What I would do is invite my husbands friends over from his squadron when the game would come on and I'd cook for everyone. That was my way of feeling like I did something. Try volunteering at the daycare on base or the thift store on base. Those are places the Family Readiness Center told me to volunteer at but I chose not to be in the public eye a lot, personal choice. Go to the gym and work out. That will eat an hour of your day :) Hmm, also try thifting. I find thifting to be fun, it's almost like a scavenger hunt. I hated being in public or being on base because it would make me notice how much people are so lovey dovy and I'd be jealous of that or notice how people take having their loved one here for granted. It was the little things with me that I noticed which is why I shy'd away from the public. If you have any questions or would like someone to talk to while your hubby is deployed please feel free to message me or whatever. I've been there before and have battled depression in the process so I know how it is. Trust and believe I've been where you are. Keep your head up everyone, deployment can only defeat you IF you let it!

Wordless Wednesday

That moment we all (military spouses) long for after a very long deployment comes homecoming. The moment we lay eyes on each other and jump into each others arms, it's extremely hard to hold back the emotions. Enjoy!

I'm Back on the Prowl

Hey everyone. Sorry I have been so MIA lately. Most of you had no idea unless you were following me on Twitter, my husband recently deployed. He is home now thank God! Things have been so crazy around here with dealing with this stressful deployment plus a heap of other things that have been rising as well. I can't get into detail about it but I want to thank all of you whom have been praying for me as well as my husband and his safe return. We both are very humbled by that. Thank you so much, we can't thank you enough. With that being said I should become more active again on my blog, fb, twitter, and instagram. I hope you all are doing marvelous! I will check in again soon. Oh and by the way, make sure you check back for my giveaways and reviews :)

Damn Deployments LOL!

Let me just tell you this deployment sucks. I have my good and bad days. It's normal to have them. Not to mention the mood swings OMG lol! I can tell you the Family Readiness Center is the place to be. They have loads of informative information they can give you about deployments, how to cope with it, and they also have therapist that work off the books to just listen to you and give you advice. I've been so busy with them it's hilarious. I get my moments when hubby and I argue and I just wanna say fawk it and be done but I can't do that. I'm a married woman and marriage is forever. I've been dealing with the deployment, plus the blogging, vlogging, research, trying to get back in school, cleaning house daily, and trying to keep my sister sane. It's a lot to handle huh? Oh and not to mention have time to talk to hubby when he's available! *le sigh* I got this though. I can do this. I can make it through this deployment even though it has just begun. If you are a military spouse and are going through deployment I recommend you buy this book called "Surviving Deployment A guide for military families" by Karen M. Pavlicin it's really a good book. I lucked up and found it at a thrift store. Ok so about thrift stores. I'm a big thrifter LOL! Hubby told me I need to calm down even though I go thrifting with $10 a day and get a tun of stuff. I need to start vlogging what I get so you all can see what types of things you can actually get from there! I absolutely love it. It's like trying to find a needle in a hay stack :) Anywho, enough of me rambling...... I hope all is well with everyone, send me some comments on what you'd like to see on my blog. I blog about everything natural hair, military, cooking, and more. So if you have any suggestions please feel free to let me know. Take care and God Bless!