Deployment, if you dare!

Okay, so I've been asked numerous times what it's like for deployment and what to expect when the time starts winding down. As most of you know I am a military spouse and have experienced deployment first hand. Not only were we extremely NEW newlyweds, we were also dealing with a lot and a deployment was thrown into the mix. Hubby left for a 4 month deployment. Now, I have been through deployments before with my brother who is Army but it is TOTALLY different than it being your SO. I can't stress this enough. It IS different. While he was gone I had a couple of surgeries and 2 ER visits. It was so bad he called his boss that is stateside at 6pm our time to go to the ER and check on me. It was that bad ya'll. When he left I was still new to the area, didn't know anyone or anything. So I would wake up every morning and cry, go get chocolate donuts from Wal-Mart LOL, then go get lost in town to try to find something to do. I fell into a depression and would cry randomly just from seeing someone holding hands in front of me. I would go to the Dollar store and spend $5 on things I knew I didn't need but made me feel better. My outlet to waste time was play video games or sleep. I couldn't watch TV much because everything that was on TV was about love or relationships and it would make my depression worse than what it already was. I heard all the time to stay busy but hey, there's only so much a person can do. Needless to say, I survived deployment WITHOUT any children or pets. I was here all alone in this City I now call home. I know my way around town now from going and getting lost randomly. I learned my way around base alone. I learned what programs are out there and what to do. I was basically thrown to the wolves to survive 4 months in a town I knew nothing about with the military and my husband overseas. It was really tough. I, myself, have a problem with the military (that will be another blog, it's a new situation within itself). Don't let people tell you that the military will help you and be there and all this. It's what you make of it. I found the Family Readiness Center half way through deployment. The people there are nice and would talk to me about whatever was on my mind. It helped in a way but not nearly as much as you would think. They kept saying stay busy stay busy it will keep your mind off of things. People fail to realize that keeping busy only makes it worse in time. If you don't listen to yourself listen to me. You need to deal with the issue at hand, don't put it on the back burner. Doing things to keep you busy is okay BUT at the end of the day when it's time to unwind guess what, it will hit you like a ton of bricks and you won't know what to do. So I say this with love and care, it's okay to cry. It's okay to challenge yourself but it is NOT okay to stay busy at all times thinking it will make things better. It's only suppressing how you really feel and trust me it will hit you and when it does your life will be in a whirl wind. I can't stress that enough. Be ready to be alone, sad, and feeling hopeless at times. It's normal to feel that way. You have to bounce back, you have to snap out of it if your going to survive. What I would do is invite my husbands friends over from his squadron when the game would come on and I'd cook for everyone. That was my way of feeling like I did something. Try volunteering at the daycare on base or the thift store on base. Those are places the Family Readiness Center told me to volunteer at but I chose not to be in the public eye a lot, personal choice. Go to the gym and work out. That will eat an hour of your day :) Hmm, also try thifting. I find thifting to be fun, it's almost like a scavenger hunt. I hated being in public or being on base because it would make me notice how much people are so lovey dovy and I'd be jealous of that or notice how people take having their loved one here for granted. It was the little things with me that I noticed which is why I shy'd away from the public. If you have any questions or would like someone to talk to while your hubby is deployed please feel free to message me or whatever. I've been there before and have battled depression in the process so I know how it is. Trust and believe I've been where you are. Keep your head up everyone, deployment can only defeat you IF you let it!

Unforeseen Circumstances

Hey everyone. As you all can tell I pop in and out of my blog and haven't been blogging daily as I used to. Sorry for all the technical difficulties but I promise I will return. I'm having lots of difficulties with my internet service and their crappy customer service and a tad bit of computer glitches. Needless to say I'm at the library stealing internet to make this blog post LOL! #dontjudgeme heheheeee. Hey now, a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. You know what I mean? Anywho, expect more daily blogs of random things and thoughts, military life blogs, as well as natural hair blogs. I'm going to also be sharing some of my recipes with you as well. So make sure you watch out for that and also subscribe to my blog and youtube channel. I haven't been posting much on there either BUT I have made more posts there than I have on here. Sad, I know lol. I shall return. Until next time.... God Speed :)

I'm Back on the Prowl

Hey everyone. Sorry I have been so MIA lately. Most of you had no idea unless you were following me on Twitter, my husband recently deployed. He is home now thank God! Things have been so crazy around here with dealing with this stressful deployment plus a heap of other things that have been rising as well. I can't get into detail about it but I want to thank all of you whom have been praying for me as well as my husband and his safe return. We both are very humbled by that. Thank you so much, we can't thank you enough. With that being said I should become more active again on my blog, fb, twitter, and instagram. I hope you all are doing marvelous! I will check in again soon. Oh and by the way, make sure you check back for my giveaways and reviews :)

..... and so it begins

This deployment has finally begun. You know I thought I'd never get to this point. Let a lone be a newlywed and gearing up for deployment at the same time. Yes you guys I recently got married. I'll have to upload pictures at a later date but for now I'm just going to announce it. How do you make it through deployment?! Everyone says keep busy but there isn't much to do here.... I mean seriously. Anyway I can't think straight or get my thoughts together so I'm going to medicate and sleep right now because all I can do is cry cry cry!!

Down for the Count

Hey everyone. As you notice I've been blogging, or atleast TRYING to blog daily. There are days I don't get around to it but I do try! Yesterday I had surgery so therefore most of the blogs will be scheduled blogs I've put in my system to generate. If for any reason you'd like to chat with me please feel free to IM me on one of my messengers, YT, Twitter, or get a hold of me via phone or email. My recover is 2 weeks then I should be back to my 100% self. Ohhh I can't wait! <3 and Knappiness everyone!!

Sick as can Be!

I know it's been a minute but I've been really really occupied with trying to feel better UGH! I hate feeling like crud and right about now yeah that's how I feel LOL! So yeah. How have you all been doing? I'm planning on making this blog bigger and better and not putting it on the back-burner lol. I know I have been for the past what, year or so BWAHAHAHAAAA! Charge it to my mind and not my heart guys! I've missed you I really have. Make sure you are following me on twitter and subbed on YouTube. If you want to find the links look to the right they are in the navigation down there *pointing like you know what I'm talking about* LOL!!! Anywho I hope all is well. God Bless! XoXo

I'm Backkkkkkk!

Hey everyone! I know I've been gone since Feb. I'm working on that lol. I haven't forgotten about you all! I've been extremely busy between work, school, and my personal life it's been banana's for me but I'm working on leveling everything out. As most of you know, I've had some sections of my hair that have broken off so bad that it would not grow like the rest of my hair which has me come to the conclusion I'm doing my SECOND big chop tonight :) Yes you heard me correct. My 2nd BIG CHOP! I've got so many photos to update you guys on as well as lots of good blogs with some excellent information to boot  so make sure you watch out for that! By the way, don't forget to stop by my YouTube channel and show me some love by rating, commenting, and subscribing. I'd really appreciate that hehee :) Anywho, let me get this dinner going and I'll be back tomorrow with the results from my big chop (photos and all)

Peace, Love, and Knappiness!

-Key

I'm Still Alive..

Alright,
So I know I've been gone for quite some time LOL! Sorry about that. Things in my life have been very hectic. I won't go into detail BUT I will tell you that I've been slacking majorly hahaaa. Please forgive me. I'm going to get back into my routine of blogging, etc. So please watch out for that coming to a screen near YOU! I'm actually watching the news at the moment and trying to wake completely up. I've got a lot to do today. Anywho, gotta jet!
XoXo

Site Update-Happy Holidays!!

Hey ladies and gentlemen...... as you can see I've changed the look of my blog. I wanted the Christmas feel :P I hope you enjoy the music as well! Please make sure you comment below and also follow me on Twitter and also subscribe on YouTube! Take care and Happy Holidays :)

XoXo,
-Key

Me vs State of FL

Yeah just what the title says.... I'm getting ready for court right now and it's myself vs the state of FL. Hopefully they will drop the charges because it's stupid what their doing. If not, I'm in some big trouble *biting nails* yall pray they drop the charges seriously. I need prayer and LOTS of it! I'll be back later on in the day with updates on how it went and also my daily blogs heheheee. XoXo Take care and don't forget to pray yall *prayer hands*